EMOTIONS

After visiting my Sports Practitioner two weeks ago it was recommended that I take a blood test to determine the cause of my dizziness or bad spells. My result would show an extreme low count of white blood cells. A normal low count would be 4 and a high count would be 11. My count is 3.3. In my practitioner's words "you're body is under severe stress!" No S#&T. I'm also low on calcium and iron. Since then I've included calcium and iron supplements in my diet as well as an antioxidant for my white blood cells. Obviously it's imperative I stay away from anyone with the flu. My consumption of red meat have now increased to a portion a day.
So how have I been feeling? To be honest I've been experiencing a lot of low days than good. My energy levels are not as up as they use to be. I'd have a fantastic session of posing one day then a week later I'd feel completely flat, exhausted and frumpy. These past couple of days have been the worse! My cycle's begun and my emotions are completely twisted and fragile. On Tuesday I turned up at work with a migraine like headache. It was god awful. Then I felt an overwhelming rush of depression that I cried in my office. Then cried later in the toilet. So now I've cried twice! And just when I thought things couldn't get worse, it's the late afternoon and I can feel a rush of aches through my body. I now have the chills! The weather's twenty something degrees, i'ts mild folks. I'm now wearing a jumper and fleece jacket sitting over a heater. My boss, Mike looks at me and says ... Girl! You look like crap! Thanks Mike! That makes me feel better. I later leave for home, no gym, straight home for tea and honey. I am zonked!
Yesterday I arrive at the gym. It's legs, my favourite. I warm up with 30 reps of squats with the bar only. I finish and my legs are nice and warm. Suddenly I get the chills ... god damn it ... not now! I look around the gym, I want to find an instructor but nobody is free. I look back at my weights. I think to myself ... I've only started with a bar?! No weights? I'm cold! This is really, really depressing. I cry myself silly again! Nobody can see me. It's awhile till I'm composed. I think ... shall I pack up and go home or should I push on? I pushed on! I reckon that was the hardest (mentally) session I had ever done. I was relieved.
I am ok now. How I'll be tomorrow and the next day? I'll wait for it to come and I'll do my damn best. I'm scheduled for another blood test next week. I hope things will improve. Til then I'm off to cardio now. Take care!
3 Comments:
Oh Hunny!! I almost cried just reading your blog.
First thing I want to say is that it's great that you found the cause of the problem and have started on the road to fixing it.
Now with all that's going on with you it will take a little while before you start feeling better. Unfortunately it doesn't happen overnight :-(
But it will happen, you will be your happy and energetic self in no time.
Just give your body time, it will come good.
Please keep us posted on your next blood test.
Sending you good vibe and lots of energy now :-)
Deb xxx
At least you've narrowed down the source of the problem - here's to a short trip on the road to FULL recovery!!
Thinking of you!
- Michelle
Hi Maraina! I thought Im the only one who felt really tense now, but seems like Im not alone. I know how you felt. But that's alright. Keep working but remember to be relaxed as well.
Christine x
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